The Whatever Post

Hello my good people of blogspot,

I dunno whether or not people still come here to read my nonsense but hey ho, whats up? lol

I've been neglecting this blog for so long as well as writing. Yes, it has been a while. I'm a bit rusty in the writing department, please bear with me.

*whisper* although I doubt people actually read my crap LMAO but I need an outlet so voila.

First of all, lemme address my audience. Good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good day to everyone, wherever you guys may be.

Welcome to Nifty's Nonsensical Rants, Episode: What the fudge is Nifty doing with her life?

1. Work Life
My work life is gradually improving, I am now currently working in a financial institution, I've been relocated to Sipitang, a bustling frontier town, which I love coz my boss is friggin' awesome. But don't tell him that.

I was miserable before my transfer to Sipitang. I was not motivated. I don't even feel like working anymore. My performance is in ruins. I was my previous boss's little punching bag. Yeah, life was pretty dim.

I have zero self-esteem, zero self-confidence. I was a ZERO.

But ever since the transfer, I've been doing my best to improve my figure as well as my performance. I'm really glad I was given the opportunity to do so.


2. Personal Life
Weight loss
I am now currently trying to lose weight. I hate myself for abusing my body with food. I've been stress eating for so long I can't even remember the times when I took good care of my health and stayed slim.

No time for regrets now, I guess.

My current weight now is 68kg. I've lost about 7kg in the past 2 months. I need to do more rigorous training soon because my routine now is plateauing.

I used to be able to eat 2 plates of rice. And now I can only eat 5 spoonfull of rice with few necessary lauk haha. I aim to be balanced. Thank you portion control lol

Family
My father was involved in an accident on the 28th of July 2016. He's now stabilized but still remain unconscious in HQE2.

Although I may not be close to my father since I was a kid, I still feel the need to fill in the role of his child when the time matters.

Honestly, I've never really known my father. He left my brother and I to be raised by my mother since we were children. We're not in a familial stage with him. But we still do care, as one human being to another.

I hope he recovers soon.


3. Love Life

*insert smiley face*

Goodbye my 5 years long relationship, hello single life!

I have no regrets to be honest. The only thing is I wish I could've broken it off sooner to spare me from further heartache.

The suffering and pain that I have experienced made me stronger (and hopefully learn from my mistake)

But then again, I fell into a deep, deep, deep, rabbit hole. *smacks face on wall*

Why do I always make things harder for myself?
Its like, oh hi heart, I just finished fixing you. *drops heart on floor* noooooooo!

I'm honestly scared and nervous for myself.

Susah juga bah cinta ni kan? *shakes head*
Kalo buli kan, teda perasaan lagi bagus. Tiada rasa sakit hati. Kan?

*insert sarcastic smile*

Yes, I like this one guy. But, I wish I didn't. Its super complicated. And I don't like complicated. But alas, God gave me a heart that decided to go do stupid things. Thanks a lot heart.

4. Spiritual Life
I ain't holy but I do pray on my own whenever I get the chance to.

I'm lost to be honest. I need to return and immerse myself in His teachings. (because I'm a mess)

cries.

And that is all my peeps.

Thanks for reading and ciao.